How She Presents is Not Always How She Feels!

It is hard to get out of bed
Her feet feel heavy
Her energy feels more like fatigue
Insomnia
The walls are closing in

She is angry!
She is sad!
She is functioning!
She smiles!
She has forgotten basic things,
Overwhelmed with it all

Routines out of whack
No brushing teeth
Three days, no shower,
Laundry all over the place
Reaches out but missed calls take precedence!
Everyone has their own life,
So she cannot burden them with hers.

Sis questions everything, everyone
Who is loyal, who is not
She might be in her bag!
Strong people usually get left out,
They are the conquers of everyone else’s feelings except their own
Who is strong for them?

Self-care, self-care
What does that look like in the pandemic?
When you’re isolated and alone?
Piles of dishes
Appetite lost
Cold stove from cooking no meals
But extra weight is still gained
Motivation fading daily

If she doesn’t do it all
It will not get done
Support system who?
Support system where?
Instead, she faces the tribulations alone!

She is rocking through work,
Maintaining as best as she can
Though she smiles, she lay in the dark crying herself to sleep at night
However, when you see her or hear her,
How she presents is not always what she feels inside!

Rayne

Sometimes you have to readjust your crown and remember who the F*** you are, but don’t give up!